FAG.

How many girls have you reaped of their feelings?
How many lies have you kept secret?

You're nothing but low life scum.
You motherfucking bastard.
Liar.


I hadn't blogged in a long long time.
I feels as though I've forgotten that I ever had a blog.

Today, I feel compelled to post;
because I needed a space to ranter some thoughts that are in my head.

Now let's just say,
I met this boy over the internet about 2 years ago.

And our flirtatious ways soon made us emotionally attached to each other.

Or so it seemed.

He's a little dumbwitted at times,
But he always made me smile.

I was naive,
I was foolish.

I believed that one day,
We would finally get to meet each other.

And so we did.
But not quite so.

He told me he was going to come over to Singapore,
But then he came down with dengue.

I made a video.
A very ugly video.
Though I wasn't tech savvy,
I still made that video.

It's all about you.
It's all about you...

Then we had first major fight.

Silly you might say,
but we fought over a computer game.

I thought we were together.
Just suddenly, we were together.

But he broke my heart the next day,
when he told me he had to marry someone else.

Why, I asked.
"I already promised." he replied.

So for days I sulked.
For days I ignored him.

When their big day came,
I actually wanted to crash their wedding.

But I didn't.

I had nothing to say.

That night,
I sent an SMS to my guild leader.

He's a kind man,
and he consoled me.

The next thing I knew,
he was down on his knees.

He wasn't begging;
He was in misery.

His cousin looked for me,
to tell me he had gone crazy.

Locked in his own room,
He was laughing with tears in his eyes.

And ver since,
That boy and I never spoke.

For about half a year, we never spoke.
And suddenly last year,
He told me;
about his girlfriend from the office.

Nevermind.
And so I ignored.

We never spoke again..

Until last month that is.

I thought the feeling had died down.
I thought all of yesterday's feelings were lost in time.

It's been long since we last chat.

So I sent him and SMS.

Soon there after,
I found myself thinking of him.. again.

I wasn't paying any attention in class;
I was day dreaming about us.
I couldn't get to sleep at night;
I was reminiscing our past.

Day by day,
I beated around the bush.

Did I really miss him?

Then one fine day,
I told him I still loved him.
Without thinking,
I told him I still liked him.

But his reply never came.

I thought he wasn't going to talk to me ever again.

But a few days later,
I left him a message on MSN messenger.

"Harlo woman." he said.

It seemed as though nothing had happened.
It seemed that he had cleanly forgotten.

Guilty as charged,
I myself ccannot remember;
Remember the times, the dates and the all the things we did together.

I guess the love we had wasn't strong enough.
Or perhaps, it was never real.

But why do I still feel this midget in my heart?

Just hours ago I found out something I shouldn't have known.

I never had a place in his heart.
My ranking, was now way below and off the charts.

I think I still like him.
I think I still do.

But right now,
There's nothing left to say.

So don't ask why I'm manly,
Don't ask why I don't wear skirts anymore.
Stop asking me why I'm all boyish now.

Shut the fuck up
And go die.



Dear Ronin Fans,

The band has decided to part ways with
Levan, who officially will no longer
be singing for Ronin as of Tuesday,
June 19, 2007. This will come as a
surprise to most, but not all of you.
As our fans, we feel that you require
an explanation amidst all the half-
cocked rumors and allegations that
seem to be going around on forums and
the like. Many of you are musicians
yourselves, and understand that the
effort of being in a band requires the
cooperation of all of its members, a
level of mutual understanding, respect
and trust must exist in order for it
to function for an extended period of
time. On a side note, daily
interactions with people require
likewise if one wishes not to become a
miscreant. This is the groundwork
which lets a band grow over time, and
the music it produces reflects these
changes. In our case, we have arrived
at a point where the musical and
personal common ground no longer
existed between us and Levan as he
felt he wishes to make music not all
of us agreed upon. More importantly he
wanted to make music that was
individually his alone. This is a wish
we respect as we understood sometimes
the path you have to take is divergent
from that of others. At the same time
we had to reconcile ourselves to the
fact that the band itself was too
personally important an endeavor for
any of us to pursue while making a
solo album simultaneously. After a
many discussions and much deliberation
we decided it would best to let Levan
be free to do his own thing.

The final show with our old line up
will be on the 23rd of June, 1500-
1800H at Orchard Cineleisure.

As for the four of us, we fully intend
to continue making music. Currently no
new candidates for lead singers have
been considered but we have not ruled
out any possibilities just yet. It is
a period of big change for us, and we
ask for your patience as well as
continued love and support which has
brought us so much in the past. Rest
assured however that if there are any
concrete developments, you will be the
first to know and you will hear it
from us before anyone else.



Keep on rockin',

The Ronin Team: Sean, Bang, Simon,
Derryn.



xxx


But I still love Ronin..

and you Levan Wee!


Just keep producing music for the local scene alright :(


I've changed my blogskin for now because there's something wrong with the image hosting for my previous skin.


BAH.


I thought I could like do my homework tomorrow but I..



Decided to go to work -_-"





Here's the Uru smex I promised:



What?
You were expecting more?

Dame, dame dayo!
You can't have more because
You'd prolly die from a nosebleed :D




xxx

Made a new friend over Friendster today.

She damn ke ai can? :D


Ne~ Ne~

I just found out that the leg thingy Uru wears alot is actually called a garter set.

Gee.

And I went around town today asking for LEG WARMERS.


The Ginelle is soooooo CLEVER.

-______-"




WHOO WHOO!
Uru is LOVE :)



xxx

Gee.

My blog is starting to look like my once fangirl-over-Arashi blog.


NO GOOD! NO GOOD!


But anyway;
Took these from Mahdi's blog.









The Japanese speak English!


Reminds me alot about this Ohno x Aiba speak english clip I put up before:





SO WHEN I SAY LUCKY YOU SAY MAN! :D




xxx


So now I want to waste money on cosplay.

Costumes are fucking expensive I tell you T_T


Gyarh!
There goes my wonderful KAT-TUN CD collection :'(


No money for CDs now.
No money for food now.


COSPLAY COSPLAY!

Now I need friends to cosplay with ._.




xxx

I'M CROSSING OVER TO THE DARK SIDE! .0

But I'll still love Tomoya Nagase :D